Look in my heart and you will see…………
Ξ December 14th, 2009 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Uncategorized |
I just have a time, a place, and an emotion to write my feelings.
Ξ November 9th, 2009 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Uncategorized |
When the time is now, I get butterflies in my stomach, a fast beat in my heart, and a very solemn look on my face. When that time is now I close out the world around me, like it doesn’t exist in the first place. I put myself close to my soul, wrap it in my heart, surround it by the gift I’ve been given, the love in my heart and peace that finally arrives in my mind.
When the time is now I let my mind open up to listen to the deepest feelings in my heart. Feelings that I know will either make my mind calm with thoughts I love to think about, or with thoughts that can move the ground under me and swallow the world I know.
When the time is now I get scared, and I get nervous of the thoughts I allow myself to listen to from the center of my vast heart. Afraid of the things I will hear, afraid of the thoughts that will boil to the surface after brewing so long after being buried by my conscious mind, either recently or many years ago.
When the time is now, I confess to myself the honest truth of my heart, my soul, and my mind. Truths that I choose to deny or accept, truths that will make me either a better person or turn me into the person I loathe, the person that on the outside ruins each moment of happiness that I desire to enjoy and share in my life.
When the time is now, I realize what I have denied myself either out of jealousy or selfishness, the happiness and opportunities to show myself that what I have, is what I have always desired, happiness, love, and the one thing in my life I have always wanted. The one thing that is a gift more precious than life itself.
When the time is now, I do my best to find the right words to say, follow the chain of events and hope the words are true to what I feel. I stop and think, ponder the thoughts and words I have heard from deep in my heart and hope they express my heart, my soul and my mind in unison. Hoping my tangled mind don’t in fact twist the feelings and thoughts. I express the best way I know, either through my actions or words, the truth of my heart.
When the time is now…………
My cousin said……….
Ξ June 29th, 2009 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Uncategorized |
Something that makes more sense to me than anything I’ve ever heard.
Quote:
“Everyone has a soul mate in life, once you find that soul mate you know it, without that soul mate you can’t think to live another day without them. The package your soul mate is in should not matter, what is important is you found them, love them, care for them, and be together with them forever.”
I wrote this……….
Ξ October 21st, 2008 | → 1 Comments | ∇ Uncategorized |
on the flight to see you in April, but never did finish it……….
Today i left Arkansas on a journey i thought would only be a dream. a dream that has been going on for five years now. A dream I shared with my love on the other side of the world. Seeming impossible only in my mind, I toyed with the thoughts of someday meeting him and making a life together. We talked about it, dreamed it but still, due to hurdles that only seem impossible, we put off taking that first step to make the dream a reality.
In a book i had bought 4 or 5 years ago, I found something I just had passed over before, the words “Sedikit-sedikit lama-lama menjadi bukit” just escaped me. How I didn’t see it and realize the impossible only exists in one’s mind. Translated it means “Take it one step at a time”. I had read this book several times, but today it finally stuck out, maybe because I had taken that first step. I’ve had the desire to learn bahasa Indonesia since I met him, not because of him only but because since an early age something has intrigued me about Indonesia, the culture, history and the overall ambiance. I have always felt a connection to the country, not realizing that connection laid in one heart, the heart that beat the same beat as mine, although not as long, but still the same.
When we met the connection was instant, a feeling inside quieted, a space vacant my whole life filled with a feeling of comfort only afforded the equal to pure bliss.
Baby, you know the rest of what I wanted to write. Today our life we live was once a dream, a hope, a prayer. Today our life is what we prayed for together, and together we give thanks to God for what we have been given.
I love you, simple as that buah hati
Life with you is………
Ξ September 21st, 2008 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Mike |
No words can say it, only from my beating heart can you hear it
Found another count down!!
Ξ August 10th, 2008 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Time to Meet |
Friendster Countdown Clocks at PingAFriend.com
Glitter Graphics
bulan ini
Ξ August 2nd, 2008 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Time to Meet |
bulan kita sampai
bulan 8, tahun 8
Iya!!
